Delving into therapy, I am asked to think back on times where I was conditioned to think and act as though I'm wrong and will always be wrong. I seem to portray myself that way in therapy so let's have a "blast in my past," or really, let's get a little anxious.
Work work work... when it gives you hell, or really, the people within it. You'd think older ladies would mostly give you wisdom, but really they equally know how to give you drama! But I'm still going to keep growing, personally and professionally!
I don't know about you but I really struggle with mom-guilt and work-guilt. Since I rejoined the working field about 6 years ago, I have a hard time not feeling guilty calling in either for myself or because of my children, but then when I don't have to I feel guilty for not being there for my kiddos... what about you?
I'm going to introduce my third daughter in this piece and give you an insight into whether or not sleep delay is a real thing. Spoiler, for us, it is a real thing and just maybe you're experiencing something similar? Give it a go already!
My New Year's resolution is not a word, nor is it a phrase. It's more of an explanation of how I'm going to care for myself and there's never a "right time" to do that. I haven't used New Year's for real resolutions for quite some time. Stop holding yourself to a level of "just one year." Real purpose can take less time or it can take a really long time. Enjoy the journey!
Change brings a whole new level of anxiety, or not? It's definitely a rollercoaster of emotions from time to time where I continue to fight myself to get out of my own way. I've come to a new line of acceptances and new challenges that truly fight my inner being that I've known for years. I won't let it take control and you don't have to either! Maybe my journey can help you discover a new way to cope. You will also find my own, official diagnosis!
Life's responsibilities can sometimes seem far too great for one person to deal with, especially when your SO dumps shit on your plate that aren't anything you'd hope to deal or should have to. Here is where you'll see the parent/child relationship I had with my husband in our marriage and it was completely unfair to me. You'll see just how much it hurt me, because I didn't want to live...
Here is where you learn just how our upbringings and learned behaviors after our childhoods really came into play in our marriage. It was definitely not all sunshine and rainbows. It was a whole bunch of fuck ups and I don't give a damns, but we are still here, still married eleven years later. In this one you might learn to hate Dan, but please don't! He's learning to forgive himself for what he had to do during his traumas, just like myself.
I don't always parent the best way, but I do the best that I can. When our preteen began lying to us, we knew it was time to nip it in the butt. I wasn't ready to tell her things about her father. I was scared she would, somehow, look at me differently; think less of me.
Do I give it time or do I jump in head first? It depends on who you are as a person, and back then, I was a jump in head first kind of gal. I thought only with my heart and not my head and I can't say it wasn't the best decision of my life. 11 years in the making and here Daniel and I are, still tugging along in this thing called marriage.