I don't always parent the best way, but I do the best that I can. When our preteen began lying to us, we knew it was time to nip it in the butt. I wasn't ready to tell her things about her father. I was scared she would, somehow, look at me differently; think less of me.
Do I give it time or do I jump in head first? It depends on who you are as a person, and back then, I was a jump in head first kind of gal. I thought only with my heart and not my head and I can't say it wasn't the best decision of my life. 11 years in the making and here Daniel and I are, still tugging along in this thing called marriage.
I wrote some of my experiences regarding the stigma around domestic violence and how it makes me feel even to this day. You will also see some affects that have lasted for years since being the victim. I also provided a few resources to check out in case you or someone you know is being abused. These resources can really help you in other regards as well by teaching you how such violence, manipulation, and coercion can occur. NO ONE is stupid for being in an abusive relationship. NO ONE should EVER be belittled, demeaned, diminished, ashamed, or embarrassed for being in an abusive relationship. People who judge the victims will have their judgement day with their maker! Karma's a bitch!
Here she is! This part of my journey is about being in labor with my first born and whether or not I would contact her father for the birth. It was hunting season after all. That's a big thing to miss over a child being born apparently.
Things went from name calling and punching walls, to actual physical abuse. I was choked, I was beat, I was broken down one action at a time.
This is where you start to see some manipulation and abuse. at first it was subtle. You'll see the manipulative words, the isolation, the shaming, the beginning of the violence, the confusion. You'll read things you might not want to read.
On to the good-old college days. A few dates here and there and I thought I found "the one." Boy was I ever so naive to the shit he will later put me through! I should have heeded the "red flag" warnings.
This post is about my childhood. It was a seemingly good childhood, but I build on the most impactful ones that affected me to my core. PS hope you enjoy the photo because as it stands, all of my children have basically done the same thing: covered themselves in Desitin.
Live the doubting (anxiety) mind I have. Feel the order (OCD) take precedence. Hear the sadness (depression) manipulate. But watch me grow!
Here I am! Nebraskan, sassy, mom of four daughters who just wants to share in our experiences together. Follow me for more posts, ask me to visit your site, leave a comment, contact me, share your inspiration in life!!!